Journal Entry 042212-B: This noise or noises not only what we normally hear as verbal communication is killing me! 24/7/365! I'm having Coffee, laying here stunned at what has happened to me to "stop" from having a life, family, free-will, "freedom" of feelinv secure; hell I was married so long and Loved one beautiful women so long that "to" be "honest" she was debilitating to my ability to "make" a decision without her "companionship" and "guidance" to live life! I mean what was just written with "love" and "longing" as well as in "despair"! God I miss "having" a "women" in my "life" to "confide" in! Men and Women? Never take for granted your "partner" in "life", for God's "please"? Yes I'm ADHD! Yes I have been "tortured" for it by men and women working as a "team"! Yes I may die for the cause of "everything I beleive in" including "the ability to medicate for the condition of ADD and ADHD" and a company that tells us to "Be Brave" but just as bad "I may die" alone! I feel such "misery" at that "thought" because I "have seen others alone both in hospitals and in their homes" suffering some similiar "fate"! We dont come into this world "alone" without "love" in most if not all cases but we can "leave" this world alone and " aware" in "misery" surrounded by "people" or simply "alone" with no one "near us" alone and miserable in so many ways" just damaged and as "outcasts" for no other reason than the "greed and selfishness" of mankind"! I wish I had died on a battle "field" hundreds of years ago! Selfish? Probably so but "young" maybe and still with "honor"! The youthful ignorance is way in my past of a "wonderful" life! God bless, Peace, Love and Knowledge! God bless, Peace, Love and Knowledge! Floyd Clifton Wooley