I don't know if I should lay some past crap I've been through out first or just tell this because I'm worn out but the past doesn't go away it just teaches us to pretty much expect anything to happen and whoever said an ADHD person wasn't aware of their surrounding is a damn fool!
Tonight I was pretty much in a half way funk but not to that great an extent because I had the opportuntity to get out of my home and make some calls on some people that I don't want to let down and another with a man to list his camper on my classified page.
I to tell the truth have given some pretty amazing deals to people to list on that page and I will continue to do so to give both myself and my clients a chance to test an idea that has just enough difference in concept to make it appealing to advertise on no matter if you are a business owner or an individual!
Please feel free to contact me at your convenience because if this page works it works for us both and I appreciate you and I plan to be right here in this community as I have been my entire life.
Now you say that seems overly emphatic a statement? Well not if you are you like me and just refuse to give in and make nice as the Dixie Chicks said once. Well I'm not a chick but that's not the point now is it! I am Southern by the grace of God! No offense.
Tonight I had just a wonderful time. You see I supposedly have done some minor things that in my own mind have made me lose my mind well that is only partly true. I have not quite lost my mind but it could happen but when it does you'll be the first to know!
Tonight I had one of those "let's kick old Cliff's ass nights from those freindly folks that even a country singer now has written a song about! I'm not afraid of saying so because the bottom line is he is insane and so is every body else that think they are damn meant to endure such crap the rest of their lives!
The lie is the lie and there isn't much else to say about the matter except that it is a lie and for God's sake don't let yourself think you are talking to our God!
I would bet my life and have bet my life on not falling for the biggest lie I have ever heard of and if my father has anything to say to me or my mother or sister they most assuredly may call me on the telephone!
Otherwise if that lie were true which a lie can turn out to be more truth than lie in this 21st Century world we as a people are doomed and i'll tell you why!
Tonight I felt pretty miserable after realizing my night was to be spent alone without my wife and now almost grown children but unfortunately that is another lie that I just have danced around for to long and the shit of it is it would behoove me to let the truth be known be cause the one's that want me to beleive their crap have the audacity to call in on me and tell my doctor shit that they should have no way of knowing and I trust her more than them and who knows if she fired my crazy self for telling this I'd actually be surprised!
The fact of the matter is the fact of the matter and I'm tired of being on the defensive but enough of that you can make up your own mind if i'm crazy or not or just a drug addict but if I am you are too because damn I'm not on any drugs!
How many of you men can tell the difference between a fire cracker and a pistol round? come on tell it like you want to don't be scared because if we continue to be scared of everything in this country our military is going to come home and think my God what has happened to the Men of this country much less the women.
The truth is I have had some people on my ass and at one time it was supposed to be because of some supposed crime in business I had committed but I wasn't afraid of that because i'm just one of those people that can lay it out just as it was and it damn sure wasn't no crime to have what we had and have our business planned so that just in case my wife wouldn't be left in the same shape i would be now you tell me who would do it any other way especially if they gave a damn well it didn't work because she got to involved on some issues and to make it short she was punished for just being my wife and owrking in our business the rest is my problem but it sure has been a hell of a fight to keep my dignity and reputation in tact under such attacks that at one point I was sitting in a Bankruptcy court meeting and some clients that were just plain into the whole idea of playing the role jumped up and held up advertising for a company that I had wanted to begin after I filed bankruptcy that wasn't even ready to be advertised in other words thay got hold of the advance news print and acted like children in court jumping up and down screaming and hollering at both myself and my wife.
Now keep in mind please that until after hurricane Ivan we had not one client that had successfully or had to even try except one that indeed had a bad water heater that was already on order to be replaced and they decided after the fact that they didn't like the bath towel holders because they were part of our Standard package which is what they insisted on purchasing. Of course the licensing board is set up to protect the homeowner but as the inspector told me, he said "Cliff we are here to protect the builder as well much to the chagrine of many people but why the hell not?
I had already felt like from the beginning I had commited a sin by cutting down an Oak tree to satisfy the homeowner days prior to starting construction when it in fact did not have to be cut down and was almost as old as the one in Magnolia springs!
you almost feel like you have killed an intelligent being much less the enormous cost entailed that I reluctantly absorbed only to regret it later and I'm talking some bucks!
Tonight. I love this voices thing because it is so absurd! It makes us ADD and ADHD people laugh our ass off! We have been taking something akin to meth for years and now since it make you hear voices we are supposed to as well and it get to the point you wish they would just come on over and sit down with you for supper! If you can stand it then you are insane otherwise you think it is absurd and wish you had been born a little earlier when the encyclopedia even thought of your 5000 year-old herb as some miracle drug! I personally would and have stood my ground and have told the truth that if I hear anything it not there in body and if it is it is some nut cases well meaning way of interpreting the wrong data that only tells you that stimulants are bad for you well the news flash is everything is a damn stimulant and they are undoubtedly not that bad for you unless you have a pre-existing heart condition which if I do then I hope I live to a hundred just to be a pain in the butt!
Weird is the theme of tonight and if i have a truck in the morning it is because my neighbors are pretty cool folks and if not then well we will just see! i'm betting on my neighbors!
Somebody was doing donuts to the southeast of my house tonight after just such a visit from the people that make you look defiant as hell and if Patrick Henry hadn't been defiant and many of his freinds we might not be here today!
I could call Fairhope and let them know where my truck is and why but damn they would just ask me if I was on Adderall and if I was my normal self i'd say hell yes even if they didn't like it but that is not true because when I complained the last time about those freindlies in my home the policeman responded yeah I know about what that Adderall does to you or something close so I shut my mouth and decided he wasn't up on the whole idea of ADHd anymore than some of our citizens which cost me the last six years of my life trying to get out of the shadow of the so called hearing crap that only happened all of a sudden after years of taking the derivitive and now when folks joke about me being a drug addict i kinda take it personally!
I never felt that way until they started the let's get the man off something that almost helped him become the man he always wanted to be and that was too nice a guy according my wife and successful to boot!
In the fireworks display I heard the car that sounded like it was doing donuts or was stuck somewhere and heck what man hasn't heard the sound of a car doing donuts? Especially us ADHD people!
Anyway some nut said acted like he angry and a few minutes later another one said he's out there doing donuts well I'm well on my way to the nut house for telling the truth but what the hell somebody just show up and give me a character statement or something because I'm just that not one to be anything but a character.
I hope my sister reads this god love her cause about that time it sounded like someone firing a pistol out back and or to the south east of this house to be more exact so I fell for something!
I was concerned my freinds and family had gotten into an all out battle that is how bad it is and if Presdent O'bama were to send me a little man in my opinion to a FBI facilty to have me tested psychologically it would come back that I the poor man had been tortured for something that was made into something it wasn't and I just hope such a thing could happen because he isn't liked much around here in some quarters and most of those people aren't living in a realistic world themselves so if you think i'm not which you may or may not it doesn't really mater because i'm just holding on trying to not go back to a place that Geronimo had to deal with over a hundred years ago and it still looks pretty much like it did when he was there!
that was a trip and partly my fault because I didn't run and hide and leave my family which is the insane notion some people have as the solution for some of us but why would you seperate a family unless you were torturing one and asking them to go agaisnt what their daddy had taught them and lie! Yeah it can and has been done in this place and it may be going on where you live and if so for God's sake pay attention because me and several million other ADHd people that are made to look bi-polar on purpose to keep us quiet by drugging us into submission which in itself i know you feel is a crime.
My truck got stuck on the damn dirt road and I worked in the brammels and the briars cutting them back because it has no reverse which is supposedly my fault and maybe but I have had some bad luck all of a sudden with transmissions considering i've had 15 or twenty cars and drove trucks for a living when I was 18 that weighed forty thousand pounds and i never lost a transmission in not one!
I guess I look at everyting in percentages and in order and if that seems odd to you cause i'm ADHD you haven't read much on the subject but you should because discipline works on only part of the issue and I'm sure sorry I didn't know that earlier so I could avoid this miserable varied attack I face on a daily basis except last night but wait that shouldn't have happened but it did and now I have my sanity back because when it started again I told every last one of the people involved off so they think they have me now by getting me back tonight but i'm still alive and if they try much more of this crap they my loving freinds and family will have me off the one thing I need most and my kids deserve most and that is Blue Cross god help them because they are changing the prescription coverage and let me tell you even if it kills me somehow the generic medicine may or may not save your life so to Presdient O'bama I ask that you by courier or carrier pideon let him know that our national nealth plan should include that freedom of choice at least to some degree!
Hell I may just a fool for love but that is weird because I have had that completely taken out of my life by this war ot attrition that I hope turns my way and I can get back to just owrking and off this damn disability so someoen else can have it and if I could figure out how to get paid for something it sure would be nice.
you see the trick is to get me off the medication by not allowing me any peace and since it is an anti-depressant as well as a pain killer and ADHD medication it is hard not to fall for that crap and look like a drug addict. I'll go in there tonight and suffer having to listen to some bull somebody wants to talk about instead of my wife that if she loves me well I still hold out some hope on that too so maybe I am a fool!
What I really need to do is call the Fairhope police and let them know my truck is down there and that was for a good reason for god's sakes cause i thought there was a killing going on which thank goodness it wasn't but damn it was embarrassing in my old dodge not to be able to sling that baby around in that mud and head back. For the record once i'm off this medication which according to my notes has been done by theft, deception, smoke and mirrors and if I don't sound like a drug addict making excuses I sure feel that at least you think so so let it go on and maybe i'll make it and if not then you'll know it when i'm not here telling the truth which Lord does anybody want the truth anymore?
I hope so cause i'd love to have a woman beleive in me again and to have some money to make it a better quality of life if I don't fall victim to the trap that is to make you feel like the lab rat that my freind tommy Barnes once told me to watch out for!
That is amazing to some but let me go to bed before they send the sleep police over to harass me for being up too damn late which seems kinda unamerican as well!
Look if i'm crazy or a monkey's uncle we are all in trouble because there are some people that love this telepathy crap and the poor things are nuts!
God Bless, Peace, Love and Knowledge and I hope I wake up and this turns out to not be deal where I have to walk out of town or worse because i'm tired of it!
Hire somebody in your town to do this too you for 6 months and you'll be out of your home and struggling like hell not to mention losing your mind and your family along with as much time as possible without even realizing it!
If your family wants to know what your doctor knows or really wants to tell your doctor some crap tell them to call you and ask you first and don't just stop by the radio room when you are trying desperately to get your life going or me and Ty Pennington and millions more will have to listen to the ultra-right or something preach about why we shouldn't be depressed because we are now drug free and not hyper anymore which is not such a bad thing if you can control it- most of you understand!
Happy New Year and please wish me luck because it sure is hell being a lab rat!
God Bless, Peace, love and knowledge!
-Floyd C. Wooley
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