Journal Entry 100712-A: I Took A Little Trip Last Night!

Friend's,

I Took a little trip last night to Mobile.

It was hell on wheels getting out of the "living quarter's" here but I managed to get my cloth's on and run out the door just in the fashion a beat up physically and psychologically person would. I guess working since I was eight and filing taxes at 12 with a smile and proudness in my heart hasn't quite paid off but I'm sure there are other's out there that feel the same way but try like hell to teach their children that it will pay-off.

I know it does for some people. Hell it Paid off for the Anheiser's, Busch's, Henry Ford, The founder's of Coca-Cola, IBM, GM, The Gates to name a few. To get back to the other point. Being 46 and having an older family of control freaks ruin your life after you basically kill yourself trying to add something to the family legacy but hell I still love all of them regardless. That's the bottom-line on that subject. On with the story.

I left Slow, painfully and disorganized.

I drove over to Mobile to visit an Adult Club and decided the Candy Store would be the destination.

Problem was by the time I got their the pain was eased but I was sick as a dog from the "Codeine"!

I ate as much as I could before I left but it didn't help. Not one bit. With both ear's still popping in and out the nausea only increases anyway so I decided to go by McDonald's in Tillman's corner and try my best to get over to "Dog River and the Bay to get some air"!

After I ate I was still sick and said to "hell with it and drove back to Daphne.

Downtown mobile was absolutely beautiful as it had been the night before and as I wrote in yesterday's post.

I was "grandiose" as a child. Each day when I passed downtown Mobile to my dad's businesses on the Causeway after school if I was awake I would dream of one-day building the tallest building in Mobile and having my office on the top floor.

The plan was to own an oil company and base it in mobile and own a tanker or two- ships I mean!

That didn't pan out of course but at least I have been able to build a few commercial, industrial and residential homes as well as be in the "Marine Business"!

To the story. I got back to Daphne and stopped for some snuff and to put water in my truck and head home but I said "what the hell"! I'm not quite as sick from the Codeine although the pain that racks my body was coming back.

In between pain and physical illness I drove back to the Candy Store.

I drove in the parking lot and immediately felt "poor" as hell.

I had left in such a rush from the "living quarter's" here in Fairhope, Alabama that I missed that I actually owned a pair of jeans.

As I drove in the parking lot my first or second thought was "damn" look at all the couple's going in here as one man "twirled" his girl friend in the air "what a beautiful sight my friend's"! God Bless them!

Each and every one of them! "Ihope they find nothing but "good people" in their lives that never take away their "Love" for "Love" and isolate themk in "hell on earth"!

No not my business. Business is hell but it's hell we choose because we are either "honest and give a damn" about people or were crooks!

I prefer the first reason for beinjg in business even if it kills me.

The economy is built on Government for the people by the people and vise-versa!

Yes we all depend on the government- we all drive on the Interstate to name just one item on the list of reason's we have a government.

It was beautiful to see "free" people going into an Adult club to enjoy the "beauty" of human beings that are both "talented and creative" and hopefully working on a degree or to raise a family or "what the hell" just to enjoy life!

I couldn't go in the place in shorts even if they had let me. It's pretty bad when you have sacrificed eight year's of your life been poisoned and your just trying to get out and find "Love" and "beauty" without having to "Speed Date" the people that most likely you wouldn't trust anyway since they don't trust you!

I drove on back to the "house" and as I walked through the store "I felt anxiety from the very fact I was treated to one hell of a welcoming party when I moved in but I took some nerve pills, a sleeping pill half a 3mg Intuniv and a little less than half a Cymbalta and fell off to sleep.

I hate the nights here. Thye days running the store give me hope for a future and if the doctor's can save me I might salvage some of the year's taken trying to "convince" me that taking Ephedrine over the counter to better my life then getting "screwed" out of it all right before a recession-depression not to mention that "pain and suffering" is just part of life so just deal with it and that Adderall XR and Vyvanse do not "improve" lives when in fact they do improve lives not to mention are not drugs that create "killer's and mal-contents well I'm not convinced because I know the "truth"!

The truth is they do improve lives if you can keep someone from killing you when your trying to complete a task!

I probably will never build another building much less the tallest in Mobile but it was good to see my dreams for my hometown are coming true and there is "Love" and "beauty" out there and it is "alive and well" so is the bumper to bumper traffic on the Interstate something that you have to see so if know someone being "isoloated" and run out of town through the woods so they can't know there is a better life take them to the city.

It's damn good therapy for the mind!

Oh yall I love Fairhope and Baldwin County it's just that this county is so large you need transportation to get out! The truth is only a few in any place are hater's and the lover's of the planet know it. In fact if you could feel the pain in my chin you would know what I mean even if you have never seen such activities by the older people in your family even if only a few and hopefully you never will because love never goes away and neither do memories.

I Love my family member's I just wish they had treated me differently when I was trying to build something for the future. My ex-wife suffered as did my children.

Please keep that in mind in your life as you live. I hope you don't mind me closing with that because I mean no harm I only wish peace, love and knowledge.

God Bless, Peace, Love and Knowledge!

Floyd Clifton Wooley