I'm insane! Not only am I Insane I'm sex fiend, liar, lazy bum, obsessed (with everything), a neat freak that has time to be neat and back to the sex thing! Laugh with me this morning on the last inference to sex cause that is weird to me.
No not sex or actually loving it or wanting it or missing it or that someone thinks I may be a damn sex fiend in the 1st place! What is weird to me is that I a person that loves people, being around people having friends that I may not see for six months at a time but when I do I feel like they are still my friend, are happy to see me as I them, that I as well as they trust each other with our lives or hell at least I think they would take a bullet for me because I would them has spent so much time over the last six years of my life alone!
Never in my life did I expect to spend six years of my life so damn alone! Well it happened and there are so many opinions I've let into my life and mind that now I spend every waking hour trying to keep the clarity of mind (not going over those damn opinions looking for the right combination) that I feel may end that miserable lonliness for one reason- to once again be surrounded by friends, a lover and confidont special envoy and keeper of the peace!
I'm laughing at how damn insane that must sound but think about it what is the problem?
I've been accused or made to feel like I had been accused of the following: No it is a list of moral, ethical and a list of my own definition of values that for the most part except my own set of values and guidelines for how to have a life that you can say has not been a burden yet was full that has been compromised!
That is the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth so help me God!
Are my own values so much different than those you hold close. I just don't think so! If you are a friend of mine that is! Hold yourself to a high standard and don't sweat the small stuff! Now that is some shit folks because I do exactly opposite that now and if I work real hard at it I spend most of the time being myself personality wise (ADHD or depressed because I am in that position again) that when I do get the clarity of mind I had for most of the last 18 years I'm so far behind on my goals that I miss out on even my favorite thing of all the SEX part okay!
Well friends I know why. It is as the Buffett song finally gets around to saying "it's no one's fault but my own" except it isn't that big of a deal!
Now that we have that clear we can move forward. What is the first thing you have to do to accomplish anything?
1.) List your options. Yeah that is it. don't let anybody fool you if you are going to multi-task effectively there has to be a short list of options! Options I said. Otherwise you'll be all alone just like my dumb ass!
Think back to your childhood or whenever it was you came to a realization that you wanted to be somebody and have somebody (and they you for God's sakes) that family to go with it and the toys and future and satisfaction or fullfillment you selfishly desired to achieve in what as a child I thought as I lay in bed at night was such an awfully short number of years to work with!
Right now I just looked at my damn watch and thought "my God" am I working here or playing or just plain a fool for loving to write in the first place?
You know where I really want to be "laying in my bed next to the most beautiful woman in the world which by the way would be purely of my own idea that we are all beautiful" as the Eminem song states so well that you think my God there people that just don't understand genius when they see it, hear it or whatever!
Bottom line "I'm a sex feind" then call me that but call it wrong and you might as well take swing at me- NO that isn't a big deal either! Trample my right to be able to do what I am doing right now hoping someone will think this is not a waste of time and let me know by any means neccessary- Life my friends!
Right now I don't if I am wasting my time your time or missing out on making a living or being with my family and the last thing on my mind is SEX!
Back to options and make it a short list you actually know how to do, can handle all at once in your life and have the best chance to NOT end up like me, well my life isn't that bad! Why? Because I've only done a few things in my life that I would vote to convict on if on a jury and most of them as listed in the "code of Alabama" now on the Web in a format we all have to be proud to have access to but I'm as bad as this mouse I click far to much to wind up in places I think my God what the Hell am I doing 25 pages off reading the damn law for?
Remember options!
1.)Then make a list under each option one by one what it will take to get that option accomplished.
2.)Keep that list short as well by seting time limits that are reasonable.*
*My number one concern in life is that I not lie to myself about anything not to mention anyone else but 1st and foremeost do not lie to yourself which if sung by is it "Pink"? Would sound out like be truth to yourself! Some nut case might ask? How does this nutcase (me) know what limits are in the 1st place and all that jazz?
Because my friends something my father said years ago rings true to a point that i often wonder is he a genius that missed his calling even with his success in life or just what is the deal! He said "Everything we do in life, we learn from and can use in the future on some other project no matter how much we think presently we are a loser! LOL and all that! To accomplish something else a little better or something my God I'm expanding on it!
Time for some breakfast and last night ah just stayed up three hours too late trying fix this damn computer never having left the house, accomplished my goal for sitting there anyway and I was lonely as hell so go back to your plan!
Remember now time limits on your details of what it will take to accomplish a goal!!! Why? Because your family may or may not let you know or care that you miss them or they miss you when trying to accomplish those Goals that are on the short list of "options" okay? I know you are intellligent because your all God's creation!
The short list I don't know but you should know how long is reasonable and conservative enough you won't make yourself feel like a loser when you fail which scratch that word! It has no place in your vocabulary except as a memory to push you forward.
Number one under each Options or Goals? Remember a short list of goals because "as my grandfather Wooley said" never have all your eggs in one basket! Otherwise you will run out and you won't get the dessert made which is that "having someone beautiful in your life to cause all these problems by the time your 44 anyway!
I'm sorry but damn it is my fault for wanting to be like this anyway- you decide what it is cause I think it's insanity! You ladies please understand all of us men for the most part love you! You make life owrth living and we miss you and if you don't want us once we lose our minds trying to please our family only to find out they may not have known that was one line above laying in that bed next to you; after we accomplished those things needed to be done to have the time to do just that and on a more regular basis if we had lived long enough and NOT lost our minds to begin with. Damn!
Goals in life have a chance to do what I just explained!
1.) Work #1
A.
B.
C.
2.) Work #2
A.
B.
C.
3.) Work #3
A.
B.
C.*
*next to each alpabet list in short order what the Hell that is described as for your set of "stressors" you are planning to have in your life!
Then go do it and hope the "Alqueda" goes to Hell first so you will have enough time to establish something before it all get's turned into something for people to say about you to your face that makes you want to kill yourself or as many "Taliban" as you can find!
Sincerely as I can say it,
Floyd C. Wooley or just Cliff who cares I just don't want you to throw anything at me in Wal-mart! If you know me I said that too you if I built your home with a few of my good friends helping. That is another subject I am proud of regardless of what a hurricane can do over here but not over there!
I guess breakfast is next but remember "somewhere I think Scotland" they are just planning lunch!
Warning: This has been posted un-edited because I am hungry.
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