Thank you!

Friends,

Wherever you may have originated your view of my page and for whatever reason "I want to let you know personally that I appreciate your viewing my site.

I personally have never had the chance to write much of anything or ask anyone to listen in any great numbers and I'm humble enough to know those of you who have clicked threw have for reasons of your own free will.

I have been in a struggle for several years with the outcome in doubt at times but never so much as this week after facing a different set of obstacles that last week seemed out of the ordinary and they were.

I decided to say what was on my mind at the time and have been depressed over my words, actions and the result but my mind is clear and I have no real regrets other than I have spent another week in a hell that only could be made by letting it get the best of me and saying and doing what I know was a planned event from the beginning be it for my good or my so-called good but I know what I've read and what I've learned over the last 6 years has justified not only my actions but the actions of people I may not even know support me and the ones that don't support me don't matter because they haven't lived my life and may be misinformed in some unfortunate way.

WebMd saved my life the first time they wrote me and indicated I not only could be ADHD but that I might be on a dose too low.

Doctor Shaik's advice to see another doctor that could prescribe me more than the dosage he had been able too and the response I got from the nurse I assumed answered the phone that day I called to make the appointment only to realize my insurance would not cover the visit and what she said stuck with me,  her answer to me was "I wouldn't let my husband in the house if didn't take his ADHD meds" and they would be glad to see me!

By this time I was more depressed than depressed could be so keep in mind if you are fighting a long drawn out battle to not let that become anyone's tool to bring you down and make you look like your not ADHD when you are because it can. One night years ago after I had lost most everything I saw a deputy in the circle K near Lake Forest and he told me "that at least I hadn't curled up on the couch in a fetal position". Well I talked with him some more and went on home and I've kept that in mind when I have been curled up on the couch in that fetal position I thought I never would succumb too. So if your whole life depends on it leave.

My father suggested that to me one time and I should have taken his advice I guess but I'm too stubborn when I feel I'm right and know I'm right to do such a thing although I've thought about going a short distance from home and trying to get things straight because it is a life at stake and other lives were at stake too. I wasn't worried about my actions but I was worried about what well intentioned people could do if they felt they had a majority and that is why I call myself a patriot, some may say fool but that is the reason I've looked for people places or things to lift me out of that dark pit we find ourselves in when we are outnumbered publicly but not so much in private if you know what I mean.

Throw a little more depression and time in with ADHD and you get the most bi-polar looking person you could ever imagine throw patience, focus, attention, concentration and conventional wisdom to the wind. The only way to hold your higher ground is to let people be people and you be true to yourself and hope to God you out live or they simply get bored with their own actions while your actions are scrutinized or not you'll be okay even though it may not seem that way at times.

My dog Boo Boo that was originally my wife's dog before we fell in love the dog and I that is and truth be known somehow my wife knew that dog loved me loved me me and she loved me enough to let that dog become my savior when I was all alone on that couch wishing like hell there was no such thing as depression to confuse the issue because the only anti-depressant that isn't a sedative and makes an ADHD person more miserable is Lexapro which makes you have plenty of energy but it sure is useless if you are ADHD to the best of my knowledge.

I walked so much on Lexapro when I was putting out brochures for myself & my bookkeeper that I could get the damn things on people's door but I was scared to death they might answer and I would have to actually answer a question. LOL!

It has worse results than that in my life but who knows maybe it was all a big joke?
Thank God for some direction from somewhere because it could have cost me my life or someone else's that miserable day!

I've hoped for a miracle but not from an invisible spirit I don't beleive in! I beleive in a God that gave us a mind to use with free will and sometimes that free will has to be exhibited in ways that make some people laugh and others cry especially if you really have had some trouble in your life and it was saved not by some person telling you what someone was going to do but by the actions of other's you could see and hold onto for some hope!

So thank you for your support or otherwise and again thank you for visiting my site. I promise you this I may not be a doctor but I have and will try to explain things that happen in my life so that it may help you because I know what has helped me and it hasn't been 24/7 365 therapy or punishment seems to be the same thing!

Love, Peace and knowledge to those that understand.

Sincerely,

Floyd C. Wooley

Dedicated to my doctor Katherine Ney, Blue Cross & Blue Shield, Ty Pennington (buddy I'm not as crazy as I may seem), My children and my ex-wife whom I love no matter the odds!