Image via WikipediaLife is a trip isn't it.
You try to be nice about things and then somebody decides to play with you a little bit and have some fun it sure aint like the twentieth when I was oblivious to everybody but myself.
The only reason I paid attention to anything was a little white cross that was pure and simple and made life a little easier to focus, concentrate and become a pretty decent salesman where in the past I had worked construction and maintenance and my my wife worked and night so I got act like I was taking care of my kids and once they went to bed I played like I was thinking about business and talked to my dad for an hour every night.
I wished I was with my wife more but she worked all the time mostly and so did I so we kinda passed in the doorway!
Now I have this bunch of folks that are trying to help me and they are killing me!
The more they push the worse I feel. They want me off this and on this and who the hell knows what is next.
They did want me in this and in that and that just taught me that there were people worse off than me and now I'm useless worrying about not being on what works and being on what they were on and somebody hollering "let's help the poor SOB again and try him on something else or get him off something" or better yet my worst fear is going back and seeing those same people in the same damn shape they were in or worse!
Hell my crazy self has to post out how insane I am and how mad I am at people that didn't want me to get the help I already had setup but get the help they wanted so now I just manage my pain and hope I can keep somebody from trying to get me off my Adderall as fast they can and then blame me the rest of the month. While I get advice on what bi-polar medicine they think I should be on!
A trip to see Alan Jackson the first concert I've seen in years and seeing the normal people having fun and I got a little upbeat I had to ride home in a truck that is haunted with people I know that can't stand for anybody to have a good time and think they can see into the future so well they predicted where my truck would run out of gas out loud and not from my own mouth so I said to hell with it let me turn the radio down so I can at least understand what you are saying over my radio!
Well I stopped right where I was told five blocks ahead of time to stop and bought a red bull and since they hate red bulls and I wanted to have the upbeat mood I had when I was at the concert which could have been better if I had asked the person I thought wanted to go with me instead of somebody else like an idiot!
Anyway to close this out I wound up getting into an argument over if a person could drive and talk to these clowns at the same time which turned out okay because when I got home I took my sleeping meds tylenol pm and a 1-1/2 klonopin and hit the sack.
I was thinking about why I didn't have a date or take my camera because that show was great and it was a fine site to see some love and happiness along with some extracurical activities going on down low and up high so the damn world is still out here which to sum it up is why I'm not dead yet but sure feel betrayed!
You damn right in every way shape and form becuase I'm only 44 and tired of the crap I've been seeing and the crap I've been hearing from this good old boy group of people that hate me and what I stand for and that is what it is!
When I say something please listen and stand up because what I said this morning that happened last night happened and it should be punished to the maximun so that not one more person me you or one of our children should live in a place where we are punished for something new every day and told we are insane for speaking out!
I talked to a friend Saturday about a job and I know I can help them bottom line and right along beside my friend of 15 years that knows if I'm selling next to him he can count on an honest man that will make it happen but I can't do it without what I had in the 90's or the prescription equivalent and their are houses being built some damn where every day and I may not vote tomorrow because I got screwed last night bottom-line and it meant everything not to get screwed but a man can only take a sneak attack from some clowns that are carrying a banner of help and Christianity that reeks of greed and Communism and is certainly not the salvation my savior assured me of and that was after I used what god gave me and what great minds develop to make other things that God created capable of making life better and I for one am a christian that sees a better day when we move welfare minds over and get this country back to work with a democratic house senate and president! My safety net is fine but I'm ready to work.
I'm ADHD and I aint gonna put up with this crap of being kept up all night for no reason and then made to look like a damn idiot unless somebody is loving me!
My doctor is Katherine Ney in Daphne, Alabama "she is the best doctor that I have ever been too because she blocks out the static"!
Stop by or give the fine doctors and staff of APS Se of Al a call: 251-621-9167
God bless, Peace, Love and knowledge!
Floyd C. Wooley
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