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ADHD, ADD, OCD, Work-a-holics & Depression patients-add the ones of you that may be experiencing PTSD related symptoms for whatever Trauma on a scale of One to Ten in your mind be it mild to severe and/or any other related symptoms to these conditions. No humor here my friends only some real facts based on a day on Shire's old Orange and transparent miracle working drug with a little help as to be noted!
You should read my first post of this day if you don't mind for a bench mark for my expectations and take notes yourself to the best of your ability of my successful day vs your expectations of results in your own life.
Yes let's be serious for a few minutes while I explain and lay out the situation as best I can being a sufferer myself of a set of circumstances and conditions over the last six years that may in some way relate to your life.
I hope no more serious and I certainly hope to leave you not feeling as though I'm making a mountain out of a mole hill by being serious with you on the subject matter!
Tomorrow is Veterans Day for God's sakes and those veterans have my deepest respect regardless of what situation you may have been involved!
To begin with my medication regimen has changes somewhat over the last few months as it should in gentle tweaks once the issues in your life have been narrowed down and not erratically as has been the case in my life over the last six years a problem I take responsibility for in the context of the fact I am much more educated than I was when I first began my trek across this mine field.
The mine field is hasty actions based on desperation and desperation comes from many sources I'm sure you are aware but to name a few:
1.) Loss of control of your life.
2.) Loss of a financial security that was briefly visible.
3.) A wrong decision following an accident that could have cost my life if not my ability to right a listing ship ie: Life
4.) Confusion that I may have brought upon myself by my health care providers based on a brief period in my life when the whole picture of a self-medicating man that had some success was actually the more accurate picture if not as I said for my own stupidity.
5.) My own stubborness that ultimately may save my life but has made it difficult for those that have been involved with non-adults both in a private and professional manner. I don't blame anyone for anything Today and their is a reason that I'm pointing too so bare with me please.
6.) My own misconceptions see: Stupidity and ignorance on a subject I once had more of an understanding of prior to some of the prior stated mistakes which thank God aren't nor have been to this point anymore harmful to myself or anyone else than I think- Well "what the hell" things become more apparent and numbers change on a scale so let's hope for my sake and yours as well that none of our past mistakes have been more of a problem for anyone else than we already suppose them to be!
The results of all these circumstances, mistakes, accidents, misconceptions and hasty decisions on my part has led to some pretty miserable times in my life and I take responsibility as stated for my part. As for anyone else how could they be much more responsible than I since I pretty much a person that let people in my life know what I was doing in an off-hand way until such point that I temporarily went insane! See above! Who knows who knows what I mean but you will if you do! Damn. I gotta watch the humor or smart-ass remarks depending on your view.
One thing you should never answer yes too if asked is "do you have mood swings" unless you have them on a basis other than what I had in mind. Certainly keep in mind that life's "pressure's " should be taken into account before answering that question and be honest for God's sake because a yes answer because you change your mind at the last minute "when you have a terrible Event(s)" going on at the time or just because you are physically or mentally exhausted from a day, most likely will spell doom for you if you answer "yes" based on those stated reasons.
The doom may not be permanent but it sure can waste some time in your life that is irreplaceable!
I hope you are still with me. In fact I need to freshen up on my definition of bi-polar and the difference between that condition and just plain depressed and seeking a lift into a better mood by hastily answering "yes" vs being ADHD myself!
The best thing to use are the books from the nineties vs the ones you may read Today! In fact read everything you can while on your ADHD medication- advice I'm not taking Today because I want the best for you.
I could lie and say I'm expecting to get rich giving advice but I'm a patient not a doctor. I'm more like a male Erma Brohmbach Search Amazon.com for life ain't a bowl of cherries!
!Answer no if you can list on paper your ups and downs based on events and not based on a regular occurrence that you can't say "Damn I've been Up or down for long periods for no reason that isn't a part of natural life events!
If you are down and there is a damn good reason for an extended lenght of time you most likely are depressed, exhausted from some kind of fight to survive or trauma in your life that is related. It could be anything from shell shock from a war like experience to loss of financial security and especially loss of family God forbid by death or any number reasons. I hope those that read this are in a good enough "state-of-mind" to understand or someone close to is!
If you are ADHD, ADD and depressed you'll find some stimulation in everything from Activities in your life to distract your mind to the food and drink you consume! You'll find the lenght of time those moments of releif last will vary!
To my knowledge there is no cure for ADHD or ADD that God hasn't made available to us permantly here on this planet and therapy is only as good as your "state-of-mind and acceptance of it mentally something you should be able to "mark in time" in your life and remeber depression affects your memory recall it sure has mine and it has become better with time that is my own memory recall which is crucial in your recovery from depression and treatment of ADHD and ADD. Thank you Dr. Mace for pointing that issue out to me once and making it stick in my mind so I would think to or ask myself why the hell can't I remember things to the high percentage of accuracy I used to be able too at that time which was only a year or two out of the collapse of my life!
My only mistake was not to be in a position to continue to pay him and my stubborness to get things fixed quickly so I could get my work-a-holic fix!
Dr. Bergmann? Hell he was the first and I didn't have a clue I was so depressed and anxious for a quick fix to my problems and God bless him he was ADHD himself not mention his nurse although she bought one of my houses from the original owner had a damn car wreck herself almost right after I started seeing him so no blame can be placed in either direction in that situation one way or another more than 60% mine and 40% theirs and only for the obvious reasons stated!
I did answer "yes" to the question on mood swings with like I said "no clue"!
Dr. Shaikh? Well there was one in between but even my sister said he had a bad "bedside manner" god love her! She is probably of a different opinion now since I've driven her crazy and she's on drugs! Sorry about the humor/smart ass remark!
Her experience was with younger trauma patients- I'm kidding again. No comment.
As for Dr. Shaikh he is recommended by the V. A.!
As told to me by one of his clients! He wanted me to see an ADHD specialist/psychiatrist but I had Blue Cross and still do God willing!
Dr. Ney and the staff at APS, Blue Cross, Shire and all the drug stores around town although the Adderall is a miracle drug and to "hell with Barr" I apologize for getting yall all on drugs!
George, my God man, you went to auburn worked for the Army and now your so high up in the V.A. I'm happy for you but this civilian is trip aint it?
On with the Story. First let me say George was attacked by my Saint Bernard as a kid and maybe he holds some deep resentment towards me for shooting with the B.B. gun! I'm sorry man you had one too! I forget maybe it was just a sling-shot! We won't bring up the "Ants" buddy. Tommy remembers what I'm talking about!
Lord Tommy, Carol and Aaron not to mention oh shoot me I am almost 45! Carol you did almost get me a case rabies by talking me into owning a coon! Damn crazy Coon!
On with this story of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness that has had it's ups and downs and I aint talking moods okay!
Now as for Today. It was about as successful a day as I have had since the last time I had one and NO tomorrow will be okay too and the next better so help me God or I'm going to blow brains out for being the worst person to take their own advice I've ever seen!
The drugs of Today:
A.) Adderall Xr 30 x times what works for me! Maybe not you! Yet!
Well get you on that hard stuff Ty takes when the time comes!
B.) A 1/4 clonazapam twice!
C.) 500 milligrams of vitamin C at 8:30 am.
D.) Decaffeinated coffee.
E.) Breakfast at McDonald's.
F.) Some snuff by our friends at camel.
G.) As little of "the Real Thing" as possible.
H.) Lunch.
I.) An Ocean Spray " cran-pomegranate" I'm still sipping on.
J.) Oh yeah some help from a super-natural ADHD coach! It's top secret-okay!
K.) Supper.
*Note: I haven't taken the 1/2 of a 20 milligram Cymbalta as of yet because it reverses the positive effect the Adderall XR has on your life but it does bring you to some kind of emergency landing that is like landing a plane most likely with the nose gear stuck in the up right position.
Skipping that medication leads to irritation, agitation or withdrawals that certainly aren't pretty and after a few days your crying or fussing about something so maybe it was the concussion stupid or maybe I'm just an Angry old man before my time because I love to build and haven't but hey I'm trying to keep you out of trouble here!
Just guessing there but I would like to learn to fly! A plane okay, always have wanted to until I found out I was near-sighted and hurricane Frederic and my own miscues messed up the dream of landing on a carrier which really would never have happened but it was nice to have that dream as a kid among others!
Sorry for the unstoppable thirst I have to make somebody laugh! I think I came from the bump on the head! Everybody used to say I was to Serious! I can't remember if that was prior to self-medicating or post! Maybe it's my desire to survive gone haywire. I think it is an attribute but to each his own because it is better than being angry or called "To serious"!
God Bless, Peace, Love and Knowledge!
-Floyd C. Wooley
P.s.- Look I'm a damn Democrat but George W. Bush has guts to talk about drinking and calling it like its that there is a difference between being an alcoholic and a heavy social drinker- I forget the term he used but I bet President O'bama would sit down with President Bush and I and have a beer if I were somebody on their Radar!
President Bush I may not agree with you on some issues but I respect the hell out of you and your father!
I would like to see you and President Clinton help Free Tariq Aziz for Goodness sakes because if memory serves me correct he was a diplomat to the end! Correct me if I'm wrong. I did watch the 1st gulf War on Television everyday even before it began while at work and home! I'm just speaking from the cuff though so I may be wrong and it was the 2nd Gulf War he seemed so intent on working out a solution too. The Respect still stands for anyone brave enough to fight for or work to solve any issues in our country without being torn to shreds by one side or the other!
-continued See: ADHD, ADD & related issues #2!
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